To My Unborn Child

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The only photos I have when I was pregnant were taken in Samoa at Matareva Beach.

 

I run wildly in this forest of deception, never halting, bleeding endlessly as I search for your beating heart.  I am cloaked in the mirage of your beauty.  I look for you amongst the trees, beyond the horizon and in the distance I see your smile.  The purity of your essence, now lost, captivates me, paralyses me and I can no longer run.  I am unashamed of my yearning for you to return to my womb.  I succumb to this melancholy as it covers me in the torn remnants of your love.

Curly Miri © 2014

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri

Carry You

I want to hold you so much and experience life with you. Why is this happening again? Your dad took this photo of us in Samoa, our home. You made us so happy. I already picked out your name. I should be preparing for your arrival but now you are gone. My heart aches as I miss you and I lose you all over again. Please come back, baby. Let me hold you. Let me see you.  Let me carry you.  Love, Mom.

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Top Treats Of 2013

It is Christmas Eve in the Southern Hemisphere.  I have just watched this clip.  The beauty of this woman’s love for her husband amazes me and made me think of love in my life.

Thursday Treats began as a way to document things that made me smile.  When I look back at my posts I see more than that, it is a collection of all that I am grateful for.

Top Treats Of 2013

1.  Mister.  The love and laughter, that is more than enough for me.

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2.  Elijah.  From birth he has made my heart smile, easing the hurt of my struggle with infertility and desire of wanting a child of my own.  The closest to being a mother is to be an aunt.

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3.  Family.

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4.  Receiving this gorgeous painting from an inspiring reader of my blog.

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

5.  Japan.  The most beautiful place I have ever had the privilege to visit.

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Japan has beautiful scenery and the cherry blossoms were a great sight. However, this photo is my favourite of our trip. Mister and I amongst the crowd, relaxed and happy in Sannomiya.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

I wish you all a happy holiday season, filled with much love & laughter,

Curly Miri

Why Do You Stay?

My heart aches as I see the pain in your eyes.  I will embrace you as the tears stream down your face.  Your laughter once carried the song of a careless bird. Why have you allowed him to strip you to the core?

You tell me that he will change and you have decided to wait.

Love does not make you wait for what you deserve.

Thursday Treats

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

Nancy Wolfe Kimberly, a brilliant artist and reader of my blog from New Orleans, Louisiana sent me this stunning piece as a housewarming gift.  It made me appreciate the connection between bloggers/writers and readers.  I hope one day to visit your shores and give you a big hug.  The Heart of the Hurricane is on our living room wall. Mister and I love this piece and we’ve received so many compliments.  Thank you, Nancy. You’re beautiful!

Be sure to check out Gator Girl Art.  Nancy has a wonderful range of art via Facebook and Etsy.  Her art will add a touch of color and beauty to your home.

Beautiful piece by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly has found a special place in our home.

A recent addition to our living room.  Our "Samoan Corner" features a Fue and To'oto'o, used by talking chiefs.  The Kava Bowl is used in Samoan ceremonies accompanied by three carved Naifi (knives/axes).

Our “Samoan Corner” features a Fue and To’oto’o, used by talking chiefs. The Kava Bowl is used in Samoan ceremonies and above this is three carved Naifi (knives/axes).

Mister and I enjoyed a vacation in Samoa.  We were happy to see family and enjoy mango season (my favorite fruit).  Samoa is a special place for us as we are both of Samoan descent and it is the place we first met as mentioned in this post.

Mister and I at 'Aga Reef Resort.  Breathtaking backdrop of Lalomanu's mountainside.

Mister and I at ‘Aga Reef Resort. Breathtaking backdrop of Lalomanu’s mountainside.

We spent a day deep in the forest of Utualii preparing food using a traditional cooking method known as an Umu, an earth oven.  This practice is commonly used in Polynesia.  Mister was happy going back to his roots and we enjoyed the company of his siblings with a few bottles of Vailima.

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Size 2 Pig, Taro and Ka’amu. Samoan treats usually eaten on special occasions or for Sunday lunch.

Breakfast & Coffee date with Mister at one of our favorite places, The Cozy Cafeteria.  Mister had the Big Breakfast and I had the Salmon Bagel with Avocado.

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I have recently discovered, Rekordelig.  A gorgeous cider made in Sweden.  So delicious with lots of fruit.

Rekordelig delights by the pool.

Rekordelig delights by the pool.

I stumbled across Trent Shelton and I love his frame of mind.

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Check out the Thursday Treats category for more treats.

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri

Make Love To Me

Sex. It was never a topic discussed in our household growing up as a child.  In fact, it was a muted subject. I was introduced to the tender topic at the age of 10 in sex education. Our class watched a video of child birth and each student was given a banana and condom.  I couldn’t quite get the condom on the banana so in my frustration I ate the banana instead and watched as my classmates blew up the condoms, filled them with water and laughed uncontrollably at the video.

I recall having a sleepover at my cousin’s house around age 11 and hearing boisterous noises from the room of her parent’s.  “They’re having sex.”  Oh, okay.  Blatantly unaware of what ‘sex’ entailed.

I find my naive state of mind regarding sex at that age to be quite hilarious.  Seriously, a banana is nothing like a penis.  I still don’t know what to do with a condom and I would much rather eat a banana (kidding!).

My first encounter was somewhat disappointing.  Laying motionless, not knowing what to do and not feeling any sense of elation.  My mother always encouraged me to wait for the right man.  I never quite understood until I personally discovered and appreciated the difference of making love and having sex.

He looks at me, into my eyes and the tip of his finger lingers to the small of back.  His hands, tender and loving, pull me into his warmth and I yearn for more.  The way he moves, so in sync with the beat of my heart makes me feel beautiful and so desired.  I want nothing more but to be lost in his embrace.  I look into his eyes and he smiles because he is lost in my hunger for his body and love.  I smile because no other could ever make me feel this way and I am so grateful to call him mine.

Once you find this do not ever let go.

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri

Thursday Treats

I celebrated my birthday this week with a family dinner at home.  Made me think of a past birthday where I was in Sataoa, riding on a canoe through the mangroves.  It is in these moments of reflection that I realize the importance of time, love and being happy.  You can never turn back time or embrace your youth again.

Have I used time to the best of my ability?  I believe I have given my all to be a supportive, loyal and loving partner to Mister, a caring daughter, sister and aunt.  I have confirmed my placement for University next year, with only four papers to complete it is a realistic goal to achieve.  I’ve started writing a Novel which highlights the life of a young woman and her experiences of sexual abuse.  I will see where this Novel takes me, as my passion to write correlates with my sense of being.

Love.  Read through my blog and it is blatantly obvious how much I am in love with Mister.  This blog has enabled me to be honest without reserve and that will not ever change.  Will Mister and I ever get married?  That is what I think every time a birthday passes by.

Let’s take into consideration three significant factors of life; time, love and being happy.  If life is short, love is rare and being happy is paramount, then why do we wait to live the life we want?

Best thing about my birthday?  My family.  My mister.

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Beautiful orchids from Mister and scrumptious b’day cake made by my sister. It was a surprise and once she told me it was an ice cream cake I was over the moon. I’ve always wanted one as it reminds me of The Babysitter’s Club movie I watched repeatedly as a kid, ha!

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My sister Leah celebrated her 21st Birthday at Wild Fire, loved the food especially dessert.

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Wild Fire staff singing “Happy Birthday” in Portuguese.

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Family photo. Spot my curls and cute nephew in the corner.

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Elijah had a sleepover so thought I would get him to help with the chores.  You know, start ‘em young!

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Then he quit on me! lol

Then he quit on me! lol

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Coffee date with Mister at Fresh Gallery Otara.
Otara is a low socio-economic area that has made news headlines in New Zealand regarding high rates of crime.  What the news does not reveal is the beautiful culture and talent found in this town.  Every Saturday morning a Flea Market brings together a range of stalls selling cultural crafts, delicious food and a showcase of various singing and dancing talent.

Mister I stopped by the the Fresh Gallery Otara to check out the art on display and we were surprised with the great cafe, selling food and coffee at half the price of what we usually pay at our local cafe.

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Mister had the big breakfast, 2 poached eggs, 2 sausages, bacon and toast. $12. Cafe’s in Auckland usually charge up to $22.50 for this. I had a chicken and camembert panini for $5.90. The usual price in cafes is $9.50 and this came with salad and chutney.

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This interesting page made me laugh.  Almost there!

Check out the Thursday Treats category for more treats.

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri