Desire

Relationships are not always of love.

The following piece was written with the notion that we are sometimes lost in love, and when we embrace the truth of our situation we can then begin to truly love ourselves.

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Clarity

I yearn for clarity.  I long to feel at ease with my mind.  This month, if i was still carrying I would be giving birth to my child.  Instead, I’ve had three miscarriages and it is a daily struggle to overcome the sadness.  So, I write.  Hoping that within this writing process I will find clarity.  I know I am not alone in these thoughts and that is somewhat comforting.

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Here are a few of my latest pieces:

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This piece is for my Mister, he makes me yearn for more of life’s beauty.

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You are not ever responsible for the ignorance of others.

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I’m sure many of us have been down this road.  Is it worth it?

Miriama C.T © 2014

Love & laughter,
Curly Miri.

Introducing ‘Bash’

For my birthday last month I was gifted this beautiful typewriter from my best friend.

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I have fallen in love with the stroke of every key which has further ignited my passion to write.  I’ve named him, Bash.  A few of my latest pieces are to follow, however I post my writing daily on Instagram at instagram.com/curly_miri

Starting back this week: ‘Thursday Treats’ and I’ll introduce a new category called ‘Stranger Saturday’, curious?  You’ll find out more on Saturday.

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Miriama C.T © 2014

Love & laughter,
Curly Miri.

Thank you!

curlymirimocha In 2012, I started writing online via WordPress after my Mister snapped this photo of me on our coffee date. Curly Miri became an outlet for me to write and overcome my battle with depression.  A lot of my writing is derived from experiences in my first romantic relationship with a man from the age of 16. I left New Zealand to live with him in Washington, fast forward I’m now happy to be back in NZ.

I have now extended my writing to Instagram.   I love meeting new people, and I cherish the relationships with amazing souls I have met in the writing world. As an example, I wrote a blog post about moving into a new home and a reader sent me a painting for our home all the way from New Orleans!  You can find the beautiful work of Nancy Wolfe Kimberly (Gator Girl Art) here.

At times, I fear that allowing you to roam in the realm of my thoughts is a vulnerable gesture on my part. However, it is the genuine connections that you establish with my words I am most grateful for. Thank you for supporting my writing journey. Much love to you all.

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Love & laughter, Curly Miri (Miriama C.T.)

Imzadi

It has been five years since I lay on our bed, wishing for my tears to wash over me and numb the pain felt in the depth of my being; allowing me to sleep forever. You left, with three boxes of your belongings and that stupid television I told you was a waste of space. My heart felt like it had been ripped from my body. Every breath ached with lonesome sharpness and I yearned for you to just return and hold me, even if your arms were of lies and deceit. Every morning, you greeted me with the stench of foul whiskey. Every night, I waited for you to come home, you never did because you were with her.

I remember you once referred to our love as the essence of Imzadi. Bullshit.

The thought of you no longer crosses my mind.  I should be happy about that but then I feel I’m betraying the rare occasions of bliss that we did experience.

The day I moved on from all that was us, I swore that I would not ever let another man make me cry or yearn for comfort that should be rightfully mine.  I lied.

Curly Miri © 2014

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One of my favourite photo’s that my sister took of me at the Auckland Botanic Gardens (maybe 2 years ago). It shows that one can always rise above the pain to breathe in beauty.

Love & laughter,
Curly Miri
(Miriama C.T.)

Thursday Treats

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

Heart of the Hurricane by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly

Nancy Wolfe Kimberly, a brilliant artist and reader of my blog from New Orleans, Louisiana sent me this stunning piece as a housewarming gift.  It made me appreciate the connection between bloggers/writers and readers.  I hope one day to visit your shores and give you a big hug.  The Heart of the Hurricane is on our living room wall. Mister and I love this piece and we’ve received so many compliments.  Thank you, Nancy. You’re beautiful!

Be sure to check out Gator Girl Art.  Nancy has a wonderful range of art via Facebook and Etsy.  Her art will add a touch of color and beauty to your home.

Beautiful piece by Nancy Wolfe Kimberly has found a special place in our home.

A recent addition to our living room.  Our "Samoan Corner" features a Fue and To'oto'o, used by talking chiefs.  The Kava Bowl is used in Samoan ceremonies accompanied by three carved Naifi (knives/axes).

Our “Samoan Corner” features a Fue and To’oto’o, used by talking chiefs. The Kava Bowl is used in Samoan ceremonies and above this is three carved Naifi (knives/axes).

Mister and I enjoyed a vacation in Samoa.  We were happy to see family and enjoy mango season (my favorite fruit).  Samoa is a special place for us as we are both of Samoan descent and it is the place we first met as mentioned in this post.

Mister and I at 'Aga Reef Resort.  Breathtaking backdrop of Lalomanu's mountainside.

Mister and I at ‘Aga Reef Resort. Breathtaking backdrop of Lalomanu’s mountainside.

We spent a day deep in the forest of Utualii preparing food using a traditional cooking method known as an Umu, an earth oven.  This practice is commonly used in Polynesia.  Mister was happy going back to his roots and we enjoyed the company of his siblings with a few bottles of Vailima.

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Size 2 Pig, Taro and Ka’amu. Samoan treats usually eaten on special occasions or for Sunday lunch.

Breakfast & Coffee date with Mister at one of our favorite places, The Cozy Cafeteria.  Mister had the Big Breakfast and I had the Salmon Bagel with Avocado.

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I have recently discovered, Rekordelig.  A gorgeous cider made in Sweden.  So delicious with lots of fruit.

Rekordelig delights by the pool.

Rekordelig delights by the pool.

I stumbled across Trent Shelton and I love his frame of mind.

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Check out the Thursday Treats category for more treats.

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri

Thursday Treats

I celebrated my birthday this week with a family dinner at home.  Made me think of a past birthday where I was in Sataoa, riding on a canoe through the mangroves.  It is in these moments of reflection that I realize the importance of time, love and being happy.  You can never turn back time or embrace your youth again.

Have I used time to the best of my ability?  I believe I have given my all to be a supportive, loyal and loving partner to Mister, a caring daughter, sister and aunt.  I have confirmed my placement for University next year, with only four papers to complete it is a realistic goal to achieve.  I’ve started writing a Novel which highlights the life of a young woman and her experiences of sexual abuse.  I will see where this Novel takes me, as my passion to write correlates with my sense of being.

Love.  Read through my blog and it is blatantly obvious how much I am in love with Mister.  This blog has enabled me to be honest without reserve and that will not ever change.  Will Mister and I ever get married?  That is what I think every time a birthday passes by.

Let’s take into consideration three significant factors of life; time, love and being happy.  If life is short, love is rare and being happy is paramount, then why do we wait to live the life we want?

Best thing about my birthday?  My family.  My mister.

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Beautiful orchids from Mister and scrumptious b’day cake made by my sister. It was a surprise and once she told me it was an ice cream cake I was over the moon. I’ve always wanted one as it reminds me of The Babysitter’s Club movie I watched repeatedly as a kid, ha!

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My sister Leah celebrated her 21st Birthday at Wild Fire, loved the food especially dessert.

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Wild Fire staff singing “Happy Birthday” in Portuguese.

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Family photo. Spot my curls and cute nephew in the corner.

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Elijah had a sleepover so thought I would get him to help with the chores.  You know, start ’em young!

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Then he quit on me! lol

Then he quit on me! lol

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Coffee date with Mister at Fresh Gallery Otara.
Otara is a low socio-economic area that has made news headlines in New Zealand regarding high rates of crime.  What the news does not reveal is the beautiful culture and talent found in this town.  Every Saturday morning a Flea Market brings together a range of stalls selling cultural crafts, delicious food and a showcase of various singing and dancing talent.

Mister I stopped by the the Fresh Gallery Otara to check out the art on display and we were surprised with the great cafe, selling food and coffee at half the price of what we usually pay at our local cafe.

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Mister had the big breakfast, 2 poached eggs, 2 sausages, bacon and toast. $12. Cafe’s in Auckland usually charge up to $22.50 for this. I had a chicken and camembert panini for $5.90. The usual price in cafes is $9.50 and this came with salad and chutney.

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This interesting page made me laugh.  Almost there!

Check out the Thursday Treats category for more treats.

Love & Laughter,
Curly Miri